Just a nobody
The end of the year is drawing near (ooh, a rhyme) and I’ve been reflecting a bit on my music journey, to see if I’m anywhere near where I wanted to be.
In the first half of the year I wanted to be writing music, which I did, and through that process I learnt a lot about songwriting, producers, how the industry works, and got to meet new people which is so great. From people overseas to people in Singapore, I got to know a good mix, and everyone has been super friendly and helpful, which I’m so glad for.
In particular I met Hasso, who is an amazing producer hailing from Germany, and who totally gets the pop/EDM sound that I love. Working with him on music has been amazing, and I’m happy to be able to call someone so talented a friend.
I also took some time off for myself, and while doing that was able to reconnect with a dear friend I met in Aarhus four years ago at a vocal festival; it’s so coincidental that we are both on a singer-songwriter path now. Ngoc Anh showed me the warmest hospitality in Berlin, housing me and bringing me to all the open mics, and through her I got to know more about the music scene in Berlin. (And got to perform, too!)
In the second half of the year I wanted to be performing (in the sense of getting jobs). I did get a few music gigs which I’m very happy for, and I also learnt a thing or two about what it’s like “playing nights”. To be honest, what I’ve learnt so far ain’t pretty. But I guess that’s how this industry can be.
If there’s one thing I’ve gained from these experiences so far, though, it’s this: I need to be able to play and sing.
Ok seriously, anyone who has seen me play and sing before (which is everyone I knew in Tembusu during my uni days) knows how bad I am at it. I’m way more comfortable on a big outdoor stage backed by a full band than I am with just a single instrument and my inexperienced hands. I would rather be dancing to intense choreography and throwing swag around in front of a sold out concert hall than trying to figure out chord progressions and play them in time to my singing.
But, there’s always gonna be a new challenge ahead. It can take any shape or form. But it has to be overcome. And right now, my next challenge is to be able to put up a musical performance all on my own (not karaoke). That means going back to the scary cave of previous bad experiences, and trying to fight the beast again :/
Looks like 2018 is going to be the year I find out how badly I want to do music as my career!